My doctor of many years told me, many decades ago when I was whining and complaining to him about some annoying but very curable ailment, “Look at it this way, Marci, you’ll either die or get better!” I didn’t think it was funny at the time even though I realized there was no way he could be wrong!
I began going to Dahn Yoga classes on Tuesday, January 13, 2009, the day after I signed up for 90 days. I had wandered over to the Glenview, IL center that Monday after receiving a flyer in my door. The flyer, I am now convinced, came in response to my desperate and fervent cry that weekend that I needed to do something positive about my body and that I needed to do it right away!
I had just returned from visiting my daughter in California who was recovering from major surgery. The seriousness of her situation had made me very aware that our physical life is unpredictable and that our physical bodies need care. I had just moved to Glenview a few months earlier and after the exhaustion of moving had subsided, had proceeded to become the proverbial “couch potato.” I even looked like a potato rather than the stalk of celery I had resembled a short time earlier!
So, I gathered my courage and went to my very first class at 6:45AM. On that first day I was wearing a fat Ace bandage wrapped around my right knee. My left knee felt no pain, it was titanium, having been replaced in 2001. My right, so-called “good” knee sustained a lot of stress from day-to-day twisting and turning. I often suffered from painful swelling due to inflammation in that knee, hence the bandage. I remember being glad my new white Dahn Yoga uniform pants would hide my knee and I hoped no one would notice the bandage. For some reason, I felt like I was being sneaky wearing a supportive device on my knee in a yoga class.
Fate is cruel! Master Soul, then manager of Glenview Center, decided on that day to do a long exercise of toe tapping and, then, would you believe it, knee bouncing! Bounce! Bounce! Bounce! Each member counted to 10 and we went round and round. Bouncing hard! I thought, “I will not be able to do this!!” However, I continued bouncing, terrified as I was. I did it. Why? Mostly because I didn’t want to embarrass myself and “wimp out” in my very first class. As we entered what seemed like the thousandth round, I truly wondered how the strangers in my class would react when I died.
Finally, knee bouncing was over and we went on to other exercises and then to Jigam meditation. At some point, during the calm of the meditation, I acknowledged to myself that I was still alive and was probably going to live. During the sharing after class, I reported that I felt really good and I lied about worrying that I thought death was imminent!
The next morning I looked at my right knee and somehow it seemed smaller, tighter and stronger. I decided not to put on the Ace bandage that day. I said to myself, ”Let’s just see how it goes.”
I have not (I mean, not!) worn the Ace bandage since that day in January 2009!
I didn’t die. I got better! And I continue to get better physically, mentally and spiritually.
I am stronger and more flexible in my mind and my physical body, my energy is brighter and I am lighter in spirit and in actual pounds!
What about you?